stx today,comments

God Bless all those who serve in the armed forces. Our thoughts are with your nephew. 🙂

when you are fighting the battle against alcohlism and drug addiction some days are harder than others and today is one of those days,being sober has changed everything about my life, it's destroyed my relasionship,alienated me from my family because i don't know how to function and deal with people as a "sober" person,i'm to the point of being really bitter and just saying the hell with it,the other half does'nt understand me anymore,he sarcastically refers to me as "mr sober" and trust me i do not preach about sobriiety,i never talk about it with him,i figure if he wants it he'll find a meeting,but in the meatime my life is hell,i like sobriety,it makes me do stuff like giving a broom,food and smokes to the homeless guy and it makes me give the guy/man work when he asks,it makes me listen to the voice inside,hell the only reason i post here is because it's my version of therapy and i honestly have no other outlet for my feelings, the other half has never read any of this stuff,his reason is "i live with you" and so he continues to drink his way through life and pass out on the toilet or the kitchen floor so that i have to step over him as i get ready for work in the morning or i come home and he's all coked out and grinding his teeth, hey I WAS THERE and i'm not judging or condeming,i was worse than him at least he remembers to go to work,i totaled 4 cars and went through 11 jobs in 3 years here,coke and crack did me in,i honestly felt that crack was the best drug that god ever invented,no chemicals,completely natural and the way it makes your head explode on that first hit is one of the best feelings ever. I have never claimed "victimhood" but f##k man life is so hard some days.

Trw, you function and deal with people very well being sober. You are also fun, funny and very intelligent. It is ok to have a bad day. We all have them. Your situation with the other half is something else. It is hard to watch someone you love self destruct even if you were there yourself. You have some decisions to make there or you can just let it go on. I am sending you all my love, hugs and energy. You can make it through this day. Just this one day. I will be home next week.

Tam

I hate the IRS. That is all I have to say about that.

I do too. Trw, your showing symptoms of getting better. It's growing pains. Remember, you've been working too hard so you're tired. Big no-no. You're angry (maybe because your other half is still doing what you used to or maybe you're seeing how icky you were when you were doing that.) You're lonely because anyone is who is surrounded by people who aren't sober. Could you also be hungry? Remember HALT - hungry, angry, lonely & tired?

Go to a meeting, call your sponsor, then go to the beach. Tomorrow will be better. You might also consider going to Al-Anon to deal with the other half.

dougtamjj, will you be traveling thru the Charlotte airport on your way back to STX? There is a good possibility that I will be in the airport when you fly back...

Charlotte

Yes mam, next Saturday around 11:30 am I believe we should be in Charlotte. I will check to make sure of the time. Would love to meet you.

trw-
I sent you a PM and I sure hope you've woken up today in a better frame of mind. Please post soon so people don't worry about you!

Tamara

I'm worrying....

I'm past worrying. Frantic comes to mind. Trw, please call or email me. Please my friend.

Anyone heard from trw?

I didn't get a PM back from him yet (I am not a good friend, keep in mind, but he has always replied before!!!). Has anyone else heard from him?!?!

Tamara

morning everyone, i turned the computer off for a few days and just went to work and spent time in my yard and i read alot and ate lots of sugary things,and Trade i did make phone calls,do you remember how corny we thought all those slogans we hear all the time are and how much wisdom they truly have when you stop to think about them?

Oh yeah. Glad you're back.

trw,
Don't make come back early and kick your A$$, you had everybody worried. I'm glad your OK!

I'm in front of the A$$ kicking line.

whew....

TRW,
Glad your back. It's good to get away every once and awhile. Take care of yourself. Kim

I just spent three long days/nights immersed in taxes. I think I'm done... other than the deductions I have already realized I didn't take... but my tax return is printed and checks are written and I'll just let those extra deductions go. I pay more in taxes than anyone I've ever met despite a very complicated return with about 20 pages of forms for assorted deductions. This is a painful time of year. So is January when the USVI Government also sticks it to me for Gross Receipts taxes. Why is it that only self-employed people have to pay the equivalent of a local/state income tax in the USVI? Talk about unfair taxation! With my sons all pretty much grown, there went the deductions... yet they still need financial support and college tuition, etc. I wasn't surprised by the torrential downpour all day. It was in keeping with it being the last day before the tax deadline.

Meanwhile... life's other interesting tidbits include that my new kitty just loves to play with baby geckos and then eat them, which gives her the runs. Ick. Her butt leaks everywhere she goes. So she's spending a lot of time locked into the guest bathroom where at least she doesn't leak on couches and beds and rugs, etc.

Time to crack open a bottle of Merlot to celebrate finishing my tax forms. I found the willpower NOT to open it while working on them, even when TurboTax kept seizing up over and over again.

Hey, anybody want to buy a really expensive house and pay my tax bill for me? 🙂

I managed to sign my returns and stroke the checks without throwing up. Trust me, that was hard. Took them to the post office and mailed them before the mad rush of all the late filers desended on all the post offices tomorrow.

Mom was moved to a rehabilitation hospital this evening. I got her all settled in, ate dinner with her and watched tv a while. I left around 8:30. At 9:30 I got a frantic phone call from her saying that they weren't giving her any meds because their pharmacy was closed and she would just have to wait until tomorrow. I called her doctors answering service and was told that a nurse would have to call him. I went to the hospital and greeted several frantic nurses as they had neglected to order her meds. I explained to them very calmly that they had 30 minutes to get her meds or to transport her back to the hospital and that they all should pray very hard that no harm came to her during that 30 minutes. They scrambled and managed to obtain all but 2 of her meds which I just happend to have in my purse. They had to "borrow" other patients meds in order to do that. Oh yes, that makes me feel warm and fuzzy about leaving her here. What the heck do these poor people do that don't have any family around?

On a lighter note. I got into the hot tub with JJ the other night, topless. He looked at me and said, "mommy, I really like those nice things on your chest". While my husband was cracking up I told JJ thank you and quickly got out of the tub and put on a tee shirt. Well, I guess 4 is the cutoff date. Can't have him walking around telling all the ladies he likes those nice things on their chest. That will come soon enough.

hahahaha

well off to work and then 2 days off,the other half leaves weds morning for minnesota and his parents 50th,lol i see he has the video camera out so i guess i'm in for a treat when he gets home,hahaha

The cut-off date is 4 years old, ok CHECK!

LOL! Thanks dougtamjj.

Tammy, so you put on a tee shirt huh? Now JJ is ready for the wet t-shirt contest next...lol..

Charlotte

Do you need a second opinion? LOL