stx today,comments

the customs/border patrol guys are prowling the bush by the stop sign going up the beast right now

if you love hard headbangin heavy metal like i do there is a new band out of south africa called Seether,and they have released a disc called "finding beauty in negative spaces" really good albumn

does anyone know an inexpensive but good plumber,my dishwasher needs to be looked at and the bathroom sink needs to be installed,the tim wants nothing to do with either of them and i never learned how to do any of that stuff,lol the tim always took care of the building/rebuilding,electrical and plumbing stuff and i always took care of the demolishion, the painting and staining and the landscaping stuff

TRW - I missed the CNN coverage but I made it to the fair last week before I left MN. As always it's one of the great parts of a MN summer - people watching at it's best!!

I met this wonderful man. Trw. I don't know what it was about him but I instantly felt a connection. He started this thread. So kind, funny, interesting, so real. What a wonderful person. I miss him. I have daydreams about talking to this wonderful person about books and gardening, things we both love. The book of joby that we both read and when back in the states I bought books I thought he would love. I also love his partner whom I meet almost 4 years ago. Tim. What a gentle soul he is and he makes the best bushwacker on the island by the way. Troy, I really do love you. I'm sorry I got mad at you but you are not yourself and I wanted to bring you back. You are so loved on this message board. Outrageous, crazy funny and everyone loves you. People check in every day just to read what you have experienced each day. You make our day. I'm so sad and want to hug you my friend. You don't hate me. You just need a hug. I know I am rambling because I don't know what else to say and I'm crying so hard it is hard to type. Love you.

Tam

So I can't breathe because I have been crying so much. I went to Chicken Charlies tonight where my daughter was having a going away/baby shower. She leaves on the 12th and my heart is broken. I will miss her so. Then I come home and check the message board to find out that trw hates me. Well I just need to go to bed but I cannot quit crying. I am a major baby, bedwetter, thumbsucker, crybaby. I admit it. Somehow I need to get a little tougher. What is funny is that I am a real tough girl. I can put on a roof, build a deck, change a transmission, You know, bring home the bacon and fry it up in a pan. Whatever. Goodnight all.

Good grief.

hates a strong word tam, you read way too much into my posts,i've never once referred to you or have hated you in any way, lol ok well the last time i waited on you , you forgot to tip me, look at your cc slip

and because of you i read the book of joby twice back to back and gave really good quotes and they sold it out at under cover books AND had to reorder it to keep up with demand,lol i give good quote, i truly am sick to death of the crime/murder threads

you know i struggle alot of times, i have a major issue with life here,i'ma bitch and i go after and lash out at times, lol i put aside the book i'm reading :the girl who played with fire" it's such a fantastic book i don't want to finish it

and trade shut the hell up, you know i respect you and about 5 others on this board, i know i'm on a dry drunk right now and i know i'm rolling in and relishing in my own personal misery and i'm lashing out at people,i know i'm allowing resentments and anger to build, i know all this, i know i need a meeting and i'm fighting it right now,i hate the fact that i'm an addict/alcoholic and i NEED aa/na i hate it.i hate being weak and needy and so right now i'm fighting it lol and losing the battle i might add, i know all this and i know i'm going to hit bottom, lol can you hit bottom on a dry drunk? and when i do i'll go to a meeting,i'm pretty much there right now

lol the drunk just got home and is talking to the dogs and once again i can't sleep, welcome to my world

lol he accuses me of drinking all the time cause i steal his booze, what he doesn't realize is that yes i do steal it but i also open it and dump it down the toilet,lol i never tell him that,let him think what he thinks until he catches me

it's even more fun when i steal his drugs, lol thats when he really gets mad, lol he accuses me of smoking his rocks but again what he doesn't remember is that when i smoked i got really paranoid and hid inthe bathroom with a baseball bat and called 911 cause i was hallucinating dwarfs, lol yes i was, oh they were happy dwarfs but nontheless, lol you should have seen them dancing through my living room,lol the cops would come and tell me to slow down on my intake

aw god i just finished the girl who played with fire and cried through the last 20 pages, you have no idea

Well there you have it. I forgot to tip. Unbelievable. Here I have gone through life thinking that only once have I not tipped someone and I felt bad about that ever since. Let's see, was it about a year ago that I came in with my oldest daughter who was visiting and we were nervous because two guys were following us everywhere we went? Remember? We got out of there shortly after they ordered thinking we could get back to our car before they finished eating.

Good grief is right Paula. I have no idea why I even read this message board. I quit watching soap operas when I was a teenager. Must be menopause or as hubby calls it, men on pause.

I don't have to shut up & have you ever considered Al-Anon? If you know what you're doing, then knock it off. I can only assume you like being a boring diva but chewing up the scenery just makes you a bad actor & nothing turns a dry drunk into a wet one quicker than a pity party.

lol,yeah i know,wish you lived here on stx trade

geez tam we're going to give you an emmy for drama one day, you sat and had beers and your daughter had a grilled cheese, you laughed and had a good time and yes i remember you talking about being "stalked"

trw, i believe u r a tortured genius. your spirit needs relaxing. no need to keep pulling back on the slingshot. jump into the sea and let it take you for a moment, have a moment to yourself. you are overstimulated right now...

thanks anita, i went and poked the tim on the couch and said i'm a tortured genius and he came back with no you're stupid and i have to live with you, lol and trade al anon won't work i just hope he drives his truck off a cliff one day or sobers up, one or the other no in between

TRW and Tami, you are both being pathetic and needy--get over your selves, grow up and stop airing your dirty laundry on a public forum.

Tami you are a mother and grandmother for heaven sake, get some self respect.

TRW alot of people care about you!
Look even now with all the raw comments, people still care about you.
The island has a way of getting to you........lots of nay sayers and neg vibe..........then you come to your safe place this board & dag more neg vibe..........your lovely home is plagued with a memory of happier times..........a lover and best friend is nothing more than a painful memory and a ghost now. It has to be hell day after day living with an empty shell that resembles a lost love............your heart has turned black and cold to prevent the hurt........and doing so it's changed you and darkened your soul.............
Take a deep breath & for goodness sakes get your nose out of a book and be adventurous today to refresh your soul............does anyone have a boat?? Take TRW for a sail & to buck island..............perhaps rotorhead will give you a gratis ride & the 2 of you can buzz the island........maybe some one has some air miles they can donate & you can fly to MN for a short vaca................or make up with Tammy, and do something with her & JJ............
Gods speed & happy labor day.

charlotte [ PM ]
Re: stx today,comments
January 17, 2008 12:53PM Registered: 3 years ago
Posts: 199

TRW, what a great outlook you have on life.... more people should be like you.. You are the reason I love St. Croix and the people there.
Charlotte

thanks anita, i went and poked the tim on the couch and said i'm a tortured genius and he came back with no you're stupid and i have to live with you, lol and trade al anon won't work i just hope he drives his truck off a cliff one day or sobers up, one or the other no in between

the tim is lucky to have u in his life and he knows it. LOL!