stx today,comments

looking over the jobs on craigslist and there's an add for something on the east end that starts at 6am or 11am called tlcespresso any idea what it is the tlcespresso is part of this persons email

TRW - You crack me up! I'm still laughing about the pointy bra. She must've bought it at K-Mart because that's the only kind they sell there. For us girls, it's frustrating not being able to find decent bras at decent prices here.

well she's top heavy to begin with and they were like straight out,i just wanted to throw a tablecloth over them and use em as a picnic table

well so far i've watched FGT, summers end, prince caspian and miss congeniality,i think one of my favorite movies is natural born killers but it's hardly ever on anymore,i waited on woody harelson for about 3 months straight 6 nights a week, in minneapolis,he's a vegan pothead and actually kinda sexy in person

so now i'm watching a manly mans movie called "the castle" lol i want to run out and break some laws and get sent to prison

you know jeffery gaines 1st album is the best singer song writer disc i've heard in years,the tim and i saw him back in the 90's at the fine line in mpls,i'll never forget it,lol as we leaving the bar from the concert that night someone driving by called us faggots and i yelled back thanks for noticing,they assumed this because the fine line is a block away from the gay 90's and we both had our leather coats on,but anyway check out jeffery gaines

LOL i was just on the roof channeling eddie vedder when he did temple of the dog,i'm sick of the neighborhood musical crap so i put on some hard heavy rock,got up on the roof and started singing,pretending i was a drunk rock star,lol i'm good

Change is good. yesterday I played Jimmy hendrix Star spsngled banner on 10 for the neighborhood.

hahahahahahahha,atta girl

i'm doin gun and roses now,you know the tim introduced me to the lollapallozzas back in the 90's and i fell in love with the whole mosh pit thing,you know the violence and bloodshed of the whole thing,i loved it,but we had to stop because he had a panic attack at one of the concerts,it was the beastie boys i think,i literally had to grab him from behind and kick and stomp my way back from the stage holding on to him,i reveled in it

i dunno i guess thats why i love the tim so much,i was able to protect him in times of need,we were walking home from showboat days one night and he bumped into this black teen dude that started beating the shit out of him and he was one the ground and they were kicking him and i just stood over him legs spread to make em stop,the tim was really drunk and it was an accident,then once we were having problems on our block with a crack house and they had threatened the tim so at 4am i set their house on fire and drove them out,lol the cops told me how to do it, i also stood up to his father and brother and told both to getfucked,they hated the fact he's gay even beat him up once,well i put em both down and then his oldman latched onto me like i was his best friend and so i stopped going to family stuff cause the old man would not leave me alone,lol it's been 18 years of up and down,but ya know i promised him a ride when we started going out and i have delievered

and i don't want you to think i'm noble,i'm not i was drunk the entire 90's decade and into much of the 2000's ,he'd go to work and i'd have dates over we're talking hundreds and hundreds of men over the years,(condoms?whats that?) and then "who me" i don't mess around i love you,but please monogamy is not my middle name,he'd go to work and i'd have 5 guys over before he got home and then be in bed pretending to be asleep when he got home

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maybe i live in the past too much,but at this point thats all i have and i relish it,the tim is at a crossroads,he wants to hate me but he can't,i see this on a daily basis,and i do my best to get him to hate me so he can move on,but once again he refuses to cooperate and so he waffles back and forth, one day he hates me the next he loves me

i write because i want redemption,my past catches up at times and baby i've been there,i get flashes all day long from my past and my prepast, i see things from 1000's of years ago in living color,i wake up at night seeing this shit,i walk down the street during the day and i see this shit,this crap haunts me

trw, i have found you to be a great writer and you crack me up with some of your descriptions of the people you have come across in your daily life. you sound like a very strong person who has endured alot. i also hear a familiar sound in your most recent postings that other men go thru. we sometimes think we can endure all the problems by ourselves. i found out as tough as i think i am, i am not. that it is ok for me to ask for help,to be humbled that i am just another guy trying to do whats right for my family and fellow man. dont carry all the old baggage let it go and listen to some James Taylor ,You Gotta Friend . like they say in the service 'get your mind right and your ass will follow' my best to you

ok well i owe the board an apology,i allowed my stress and anger from the past year build to a point where i pushed myself over the edge and lashed out at people i consider friends,for that i am sorry. and Neil i tried to corrupt your wife and daughter yesterday with painkillers but.........they were good girls and escaped

so i talked to an old junkie yesterday, he's in the program for alot of years,i talked to him about this crap i'm dealing with he told me i need to start working on the steps and of course i fight him all the way and he wants to know why and i tell him i'm afraid i won't be funny anymore and he just yawns at me and tells me yes TRW you'll be at peace and relaxed for the most part,it's like really? i woke up at 5:25thisam when the alarm went off i see the light on in the LR from the hallway so i can guess whats going on, i go into the LR and there he is cracked out naked on the couch watching porn on his laptop and when he see's me he runs for his room,lol it was hilarious dude ran so fast he forgot his crack stem in the ashtray so i grabbed it and threw it in the bush i never said a word i just got ready for work and beforei left i walked over to his room and said"we don't have to live like this you know" and off i went to wait for alkon ,i'm done yelling and caring,when i got to town i talked to the lawyer i gave our stuff to to review and up and told her you need to deal with this crap it's been a year,he's either going to die or sober up,there is no in between

TRW, have you heard about the captain and his boat?

no not at all,what did he do now?but i did see that the indians did not pay enough bribe money to the czm, elliot should know better,you gotta bribe these people to get anything done,it's that whole whats in it for me attitude

lol i can't think of anything to say,i'm at a better copy right now,it's too hot out,was just at the cafe bringing milk and the place was packed,Tam how long will you be gone or is it up in the air?when does JJ go back to school?

Captain hit a reef and his boat has some holes in it. Not good.....pm me for more info

Trw, we are supposed to leave tomorrow evening for Marathon Key. Our first vacation in 4 years. We went online to check in for our flight only to find out that we weren't on the flight. We used credit card points and they screwed it all up. Hubby has been on the phone for 2 hours now trying to fix it. I have faith that he will fix it. JJ is so excited because we are going to a dolphin research center where we will spend an entire day with the dolphin trainer.

Pregnant daughter came home today from the states where she went for a wedding. She looked so incredibly beautiful when I picked her up that I almost wept. I hope she stays here to have the baby. JJ was so excited to see her. He kept hugging her and kissing her little baby bump. He loves his sister. She was talking to him about our trip to the states and asking him if he was excited. He said yes but when you are in the states you have to wear coats and big shoes and it was totally embarrassing. We all cracked up and explained to him that it was warm in the states right now and he would not have to wear embarrassing clothes. No clothes is perfect to him and he only wears them if we leave the house or if we have guest.

After our too short vacation we will be going to Virginia to work until JJ has to go back to school. Hopefully we will be returning on Aug. 19th. Something usually always delays our return. Hubby said that this time he will send JJ and I back no matter what.

Right now I am finally hearing hubby raise his voice on the phone. Doesn't sound good for our vacation. Sigh. I better go rub his shoulders or something.

So hubby and JJ are in bed. Hubby only said to me that everything is ok and we are on the plane tomorrow as he asked me for my credit card. He is such a good husband and I feel very happy and lucky to have him but I really hate not knowing what is, "everything is ok and we are on the plane tomorrow." I also don't like, "don't worry. I'll take care of it." For tonight however, I am not going to "worry about it" and let him "take care of it" I am too tired to think about "it" What the H is "it" Too scary to think about.

For some of us that is one of the hardest things to do - accept that someone else is handling it. Take a deep breath and enjoy your trip. Sounds like it will be so much fun!

See you in August.

Linda

so this guy i've known for about a year comes up to me today and kinda gets in my face and says,TRW you always looks so good,everytime i see you you look really good and i thought dude you need glasses and i don't think thats accetable behavior as outlined in the straight guy handbook,unless i missed that page when i read it,i mean really the guy was looking at me like i was the last pork chop on the plate and he's probally in his early 60's or late 50's,and then i thought well for an apt in town and a car i could just close my eyes and think of england,he's only here 4 days out of the month so i'd not have to think of england all that much,lol but i just stammered out water,i drink about 3 gallons of water a day,no soda very little coffee,and then i bolted.